Still freaking out

So, I gave the bad news to the mortgage guy -- namely that my condo fee in Pittsburgh is what it is. There's not way to lessen it despite my efforts -- even though it covers more than just the maintenance. Anyway, it's in the hands of the underwriter as we speak, and I'll find out this afternoon if it's all going to happen or not.

I'm not sure how to feel about all of this. On the one hand, I feel that they want this to happen just as much as me. And would be willing to do whatever it takes. On the other hand, if I'm out of getting a house and thus my earnest money, I'll still save money long-term by renting after our lease ends at the end of this months. I don't know where we'd live or if Maria would still be up for living downtown, but I guess we can face that issue later.